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The Garden Remembers

The garden is watching, silent and grave,
as fading summer serves ambient scene.
Green fruits linger, innocent of ripeness,
echoing promises dead on life’s vine.

I am deaf to all of it, blind to myself,
wrapped in a pall of sorrow’s aching thread;
tasting what will not hold or be held by,
releasing hope in spirals of smoky death.

A night blooming witness, slender and lithe,
shimmies and bends in pathos' dance;
releases an attar, sweet Elysian drink,
honey’s redolence on a deep, low moan.

This seduction undulates, kissingly writhes,
wreaths me, shakes me, despite myself.
You are alive, it whispers silent,
lucid fire and earth with a dark salt heart.

While some part of me struggles,
edges shift, go soft and flux to sea and sand.
Proclaimed reality gives over to mirror glass
and self refracts into endless musical spectrums.

I had forgotten what in me is melliferous,
what is wine, desire and arabesque line.
I am candles' glow on Iberian guitar.
I am saffron licked from the curve of wet lips.

We are, each of us, these intricacies;
these hidden worlds of great and terrible beauty.
Even unseen, we are no less our own masterpiece
and external sway cannot leech truth.

The garden and I will not forget again.



( 22 comments — Leave a comment )
Oct. 1st, 2008 10:22 pm (UTC)
The language is delicious.
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you love...coming from you, one of my favorite wordsmiths, that is high praise to me.
Oct. 1st, 2008 11:15 pm (UTC)
That's really lovely.
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you darlin'!
Oct. 1st, 2008 11:21 pm (UTC)
This is gorgeous, Jen, and most worthwhile. Thank you for sharing.
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you Ken.

I have a poetry performance this weekend, and was asked to write 2 new pieces based on tunes I was given. One was this Middle Eastern/Spanish sounding piece...and all my attempts to write about exotic lands I have never visited just fell flat.

In general I don't care for my poetry when it is "on demand"...but I will say that writing from my own life and experience is what works best for me. So a night in my garden, and being touched by the scent of a night blooming Jessamine was the theme I chose.

I'm glad you found it worthwhile.
Oct. 3rd, 2008 02:25 pm (UTC)
mmm... poetry with guitar in.

you've got a pretty big weekend coming up, don't you? Elements and a poetry reading. i hope you'll have a splendid and magnificent time with all of it.

*joy and hugs*
Oct. 3rd, 2008 02:48 pm (UTC)
Alas...the Elements workshop was canceled. This seems to be a running theme for me in Chicago. I offer a tarot or astrology workshop and a good group attends. I offer permaculture workshops, food activism classes and sustainable elements and no one wants to come.

It makes me sad.

It makes me not want to live in this city.

But then I realize that there are folks here with those interests - they're just not in the places I've been looking for them. I continue to desire my spiritual connections and my green connections to be one and the same and they are not (with the exception of 3 individuals that is). It's time to get out and mingle beyond the witches!
Oct. 3rd, 2008 07:43 pm (UTC)
I hear you. There is such a depth of connection between those two threads in my life, too, and I'm always glad to find others who feel the same. Like you say, though, it's good to mingle beyond the witches. Do you have much green community in Chicago the way you have a witchy community?

One thing I've been paying a little more attention to lately is the overlap between the green movement(s) and people who take their Christianity seriously. I've heard Thorn say something to the effect that she can often find more in common with a devout, attentive Baptist than with an unattentive "party pagan". She was talking about the connection she finds among those with a serious Practice, and I've found some of that same kind of familiarity with Christians who are committed to stewardship.

I've been reading Rod Dreher's book Crunchy Cons: How Birkenstocked Burkeans, Gun-Loving Organic Gardeners, Evangelical Free-Range Farmers, Hip Homeschooling Mamas, Right-Wing Nature Lovers, and Their Diverse Tribe of Countercultural Conservatives Plan to Save America (or at Least the Republican Party). While I find some of his politics unsurprisingly maddening, we have many values in common. It's kind of beautiful to find that we come from such different places in some ways, and have a lot in common too. I've been meaning to write about it for a few weeks; perhaps I'll work on that this weekend.

I'm sorry to hear that this weekend's workshop didn't work out. With different timing, I would be very interested in taking a sustainable Elements class.

In the mean time: hurray for poetry! I wish it were more realistically plausible to jaunt out to Chicago to see and hear you this weekend. As it is, this is the last weekend in my hermit year, and I think I'm going to lay low and attend to that a bit.

I wish you all the joy of your weekend, Jen, and a garden full of delicious poetry.
Oct. 3rd, 2008 09:24 pm (UTC)
I don't have green community here in Chicago. I know a few witches who reach for sustainability (and I thank the gods for them regularly). I've also met a couple of green folks who work with Christian groups. It is interesting...there are so many Christian environmentalist groups in the city - but no pagan ones that I have been able to find. The pagan groups I've worked with seem uninterested in green work.

Does something strike you as terribly wrong with this picture?

I have largely stepped away from community as I'm really hungry for a green based group. Of course I want them to use Feri tools too...which seems like an unlikely combination.

I'd love to hear more about Rod Dreher's book if you feel like sharing. And thank you for the good poetry wishes and encouragement. I'll try to remember them when I'm standing on stage thinking "oh crap...why did I agree to do this again?"

Last weekend of a Hermit year, eh? So are you going into a Wheel year or are you dropping back? And I see that you are a Libra sun...do you know your moon and rising sign?
Oct. 5th, 2008 07:36 pm (UTC)
Hello, friend =)

I'll have a more substantial response when time allows. For now: how was the reading? I was thinking of you last night, and saffron, and honey, and guitars.

Oct. 6th, 2008 05:41 pm (UTC)
Hello Darlin'

Thanks for thinking of me, and for asking how it went. I was SO nervous before and during it all. I think I must have blushed into a whole new spectrum of red.

However, all in all I feel good about it (and I'm not even going to include self deprecating qualifiers about my poetry here...look at me go!). I had two lovely friends who came out to support me, one of whom has been my Feri partner and who (perhaps more than anyone) understood how much I was reaching for expansion through that act. It was good to have him there. Without him and the work we did together - I would never have been able to share those facets of myself with the public.

I got some lovely feedback after the event, and was interviewed briefly by someone who was interested in the environmental/political aspects of my work. The band would like to continue to work with me (and we get along well) - so I was pleased.

As I was walking home, high on endorphins, taking in the beauty of autumn as it begins to decorate our street - I felt such joy and love for my new life. And that was one hell of a gift.

Happy Monday to you! ~ J

Oct. 6th, 2008 06:08 pm (UTC)
That sounds magnificent in every way! I'm so glad, Jen -- my heart is dancing for you.

*many joys, and deep admiration for your bravery and splendor*
Oct. 2nd, 2008 01:33 am (UTC)
Lovely! Except I read "Iberian guitar" as "Librarian guitar" because I'm at work. LOL
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:42 pm (UTC)
Well I am candlelight on Librarian guitars as well...facets, it's all about facets *wink*
Oct. 3rd, 2008 02:29 pm (UTC)
Lib*rian guitar
I read "Iberian" correctly, but misread your "Librarian" as "Libertarian guitar" -- who would play Libertarian guitar, I wonder...
Oct. 2nd, 2008 05:09 am (UTC)
Ah, yes. Yes.
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:50 am (UTC)
that is beautiful
Oct. 2nd, 2008 08:43 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I've decided that when I'm 104 years old that I'll be a great poet. Right now, I'm just warming up. ;>)
Oct. 2nd, 2008 09:02 pm (UTC)
when you're 104 you will be outstanding then given that this is great now!
Oct. 2nd, 2008 11:53 pm (UTC)
I agree!!
Oct. 3rd, 2008 02:30 pm (UTC)
I like the way you think =)
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